Larry Benjamin

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Larry Benjamin was born on October 11, 1959. He is the author of three novels, a collection of short stories, and a novella—all with a gay focus.

Benjamin was born in the New York City borough of the Bronx to Ray Benjamin, who was a carpenter, and his mother, Kathleen, a schoolteacher. He attended P.S. 130, P.S. 138, P.S. 131, and Adlai Stevenson High School, where he graduated in 1977. Following high school, Benjamin enrolled at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia, where he says he studied many things and learned everything he hadn’t in the previous seventeen years of his life.

Looking back on his childhood, Benjamin recalls about growing up gay, “I think the biggest challenge was not having anyone to talk to or any visible role models. Being gay in and of itself didn’t particularly trouble me. It was like being Black: it was what it was. It never occurred to me to want to change either fact. I just accepted it and moved on. If other people had a problem with it, well that was really their problem, wasn’t it?”

While in college, Benjamin came out to his roommate while he was learning to use chopsticks. “‘I know,’ he said. I asked him if it bothered him and he said, ‘No, you’re you. You’re my friend.’ Then he chastised me for not paying attention to the chopstick lesson.”

Benjamin has published three novels, “What Binds Us,” “Unbroken” (a 2014 Lambda Literary Award finalist and IPPY (Independent Publishers) Gold Medalist), and “In His Eyes,” along with the allegorical novella “Vampire Rising,” and the short story collection, “Damaged Angels.” More about Benjamin and his blog, This Writer’s Life, can be found on his website.

When asked why he writes, Benjamin says, “A few years ago it occurred to me that if we want our stories told, we must tell them. If others control our narrative they control our stories. When I think about service to the LGBTQ community, I’d have to say I write in service to our community. I am committed to telling the stories of queer people of color—and getting it right. We need to be visible and heard. Words, stories, have the power to change hearts and minds. I offer up stories so we can see ourselves and our lives reflected, and so others can learn what it is like to be a queer person of color in America. I like the fact that my writing gives me—us—a voice, and allows me to share our narrative, to give breadth and depth to the traditional white homonormative narrative. That is my activism.”

Benjamin makes his home in Philadelphia, and is married to Stanley Willauer, Jr., the man he first met nearly 30 years ago. Benjamin and Willauer had a commitment ceremony on June 28, 1997, and were legally married on June 28, 2014—their 17th anniversary, and the 45th anniversary of Stonewall. They have two dogs, a thirteen-year-old Silky Terrier who Benjamin describes as “my best friend and sidekick,” and a five-year old Bichon Frise they found on the street. Benjamin enjoys walks in the woods with his dogs, reading, and cooking for friends.

We thank Larry Benjamin for his contributions to writing, and for his support of our community.

Raymond Myles

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Raymond Myles was born on July 14, 1958 (to October 11, 1998). Known as the “Little Richard of Gospel,” he was a performer, music teacher and recording artist acknowledged by his New Orleans’ musical peers as perhaps the greatest gospel talent of his generation. Myles and his choir, the Raymond Anthony Myles Singers (RAMS), developed a huge following in New Orleans and toured extensively in the southern United States and in Europe.

Raymond Anthony Myles was born the ninth of ten children in New Orleans, Louisiana, into a family that was described as poor, but strong. Growing up in the church, he was anointed as a child prodigy by Mahalia Jackson when he was five years old (and later sung at her funeral). Seven years later, he recorded a single, “Prayer from a 12-Year-Old Boy,” which called for world peace and an end to the Vietnam War. It became a hit in the southern United States. According to those who knew Myles, he was bullied endlessly by his brothers. “They tried to beat the gay out of me,” he once said.

“Billboard” magazine writer Leo Sacks, who saw Myles perform at the New Orleans Jazz & Heritage Festival in 1982, eventually offered to produce Myles’ first full-length studio album of original material. Reviews for 1995’s “A Taste of Heaven” ranged from “its glories runneth over” and “instant chills” to “earth-moving power” and “the masses should be made aware of what New Orleans has known for years: Raymond Anthony Miles is a major talent worthy of a national stage.”

Despite Myles’ undeniable talent, every major gospel label rejected “A Taste of Heaven.” Sacks recalls, “In their view, the perception that he was gay was a liability too great to overcome with fans of evangelical gospel. The burden fell upon my shoulders, as Raymond’s producer, to break this heartbreaking news.” Sacks says that Myles responded, “But don’t they know…don’t they know that I’m talented? If I’m a Christian, doesn’t that make me a child of God, too?”

Sacks, who worked on a documentary about Myles, contends his friend’s career was held back by Myles’ sexuality, and the rejection led him to cruise the streets for sex and pick up other dangerous habits. Sacks adds that Myles was not accepted by church hard-liners and was prevented from raising his two children. Daughter Carmen Daniels said, “I’m still devastated that I didn’t get to have the relationship with him that I always wanted.”

Myles was also a music teacher at Abramson High School in New Orleans, and mentor to troubled students. Eunice Love, who sang with the RAMS, credited him with saving her life when she was a suicidal teenager.

His final album, “Heaven Is the Place,” was recorded live at Fairview Baptist Church for Allen Toussaint’s NYNO label. “Billboard” called it “a collection of sparkling originals and re-inventions of gospel standards,” and observers felt it would be the recording that put Myles into superstardom. The RAMS traveled to Europe, and played three weeks of shows at the Theater at Madison Square Garden put together by Harry Connick Jr.

On October 11, 1998, just hours after playing the Ninth Ward’s Free Music Festival, Myles was found lying on his back on a street corner, mortally wounded by a gunshot wound to the heart. Authorities believe he was shot in his Lincoln Navigator during what they characterized as a carjacking, yet also said that Myles knew his killer. Prosecutors had initially sought the death penalty against his alleged assailant, but the suspect took a plea and was convicted of being an accessory to murder. Myles was just 41 years old.

In the days and weeks following Myles’ death, there was a huge outpouring from the New Orleans community. A benefit memorial at Tipitina’s French Quarter was followed by more than 7,000 mourners turning out to view Myles’ body lying in state at the Municipal Auditorium. Over 4,000 people filled the Greater St. Stephen Full Gospel Baptist Church for his funeral, before he was laid to rest at Providence Memorial Park. His tombstone inscription reads “Maestro.”

On the issue of Myles’ self-acceptance, the spoken introduction to a track on “A Taste of Heaven” declares: “You know, I’ve discovered that some of y’all are so unhappy with yourselves. Too many of you are trying to keep up with the Joneses instead of just being who you are…And you know what else I found out? I found out, my friends, that before you can learn to love anybody else, you’ve got to first learn to love yourself.”

We remember Raymond Anthony Miles for his immeasurable contributions to the world of music, and for his support and love for our community.